First..the weepiness.
I think it may have been the fact that I finally finished Six Feet Under and that last episode just put me over the edge, but I just can’t stop crying.
What I have cried about:
–Reading People Magazine, a dog saved a girl…but the dog died.
–Reading People Magazine [same one], an Amish community is recovering from a shooter who put 10 little girls in a row and shot them and then shot himself. I remember reading the original story, but reading about these people putting their lives back together…
–Watching “Freedom Writers”, I mostly cried about the kids meeting the woman who hid Anne Frank. Anything about the Holocaust has me crying uncontrollably.
–Going to the 9/11 monument. A out of town friend came to visit, we went to see the monument and I was all choked up but it was when I saw ALL THE NAMES of everyone who died and how astronomically long that list was, i burst into tears. My friend sort of freaked out and dragged me away to buy Nuts [he is nuts for nuts]
and now this Virginia shooting. I began to cry when I read about the professor who blocked the door so people could escape [he was also a Holocaust survivor] and was killed himself. Just these pictures of all these people and these families who have no idea how to prep for something like this.
What’s interesting is that, I just returned from Las Vegas for a convention….I was at this convention when the shootings happened and nearly all of us didn’t find out until the day after [I found out during the day because I happened to watch the news while eating lunch]. It’s nearly IMPOSSIBLE to get news in Vegas, other than sport scores. The lack of interaction with the outside world is a little scary.
ANYWAY, I was flying back yesterday…from Vegas to Chicago and Chicago to New York. My Vegas to Chicago flight was delayed, so I missed my connecting flight and was booked for the next day [today]. I ended up calling a good old college friend of mine who works at the Trauma Center. We did pre-med together…he went all the way, medical school and whatnot–i went film.
We were talking about the Virginia shootings and he just shrugged his shoulders and said he really didn’t care. I was shocked, not necessarily angry, but shocked he was so nonchalant about it. And he said “well, I see this thing everyday. This is something that has gotten advertised but we run into suicides, murders, cancer…the whole gamut…so it’s hard to feel something that I am so distant from when our center has our own problems”
That is such an ODD perspective. If I were to be in that environment, would I too be desensitized?
My back is KILLING me. It’s residual from the two car accidents from January but it’s freaking April…I usually get back problems in the morning then it goes away in the afternoon…not today. My back has been hurting since two days ago. What the frick. I’ve used a heating pad, 8 ibuproefen, ICY-HOT, chamomile tea.
If anybody has ANY ideas how I can use my back again, I would greatly appreciate it.
My “new” job is exhausting. I will not be traveling for 4 days, which is great but I also stuck in bed with my back.
I’m much too young to be having back problems. goddamn car accidents.
Minimal Effort 